my hopeTuesday, October 26, 20046:43PM - sarcastic angerso i realize that it has been quite a long while since i have written in my live journal. well i'll fill you in on whats going on, in case anyone cares. well 1st off, i think i'm going to change my live journal account AGAIN!!!! yay?! i think i'll change it cuz my hope isnt dead anymore!! yay-o. so here it is. ******* flyin lama ********** well, there ya go. Current mood:  hopefulCurrent music: System of a Down - Needles Wednesday, October 13, 20044:58PM - homecoming #2 ?well well well..this is the homecoming that i have been looking forward to since like the 6th day of school or something. well, up until like 2 weeks ago, that is...NOW, david is being an asshole to me, and he is still bitching about the most petty shit you could think of. its really starting to bother me. but me, megan, nikki, rebecca, and cherice are all still going in a group, and all our dates...well minus david...so we'll have fun anyway. but homecoming #1 at Lake Park was so fun. everyone looked so awesome, and i totally miss seeing some people that i used to see all the time, it sucks seeing everyone again, and then hardly ever seeing/talking to them afterwards. We took a limo, and we took pictures at Sarah's, and then we took pictures at Turner Pond, and Kristy's little sister, liz, called me julie? cuz we look so much alike. but i suppose that me and julie are ok now? because neither of us seemed to show any issues, but mebbe that was just cuz neither of us wanted to fight on homecoming? i dont know, mebbe im just getting my hopes up. but o well, but i hope that homecoming this weekend doesnt end up being a total waste of my time...cuz if dave keeps this up, then its gonna be. but the tuesday after homecoming (the 19th) im going to a Kittie/Otep concert! yay! i cant wait, and then next month im going to 2 big concerts, that i am totally psyched about! but i gotta go do my homework...thats why i came online in the 1st place...im good at wasting time. Current mood:  worriedCurrent music: Marilyn Manson - Long Hard Road out of Hell Saturday, September 18, 20043:55PM - question for kristy...here is my question for kristy.... if she gives so little of a damn about me, then why does she check my live journal, and comment, and most likely pretend to be my boyfriends "ex" and say that hes gonna pull a "convieve and leave" on me? and why is that remotely funny to me? Current mood:  curiousCurrent music: Marilyn Manson - This is the new shit. Saturday, August 28, 20042:27PM - highschool.oh jesus...i just got done with my 1st week of highschool....uuuggghhh. 1st day sucked...next 3 days were pretty good. i know a good # of ppl, and they are all punk/goth -ish i guess...i hate labeling, but they are. they are like me!!!! WOOT! oh god im into that whole i "like" someone again thing....hes a SENIOR! go me! hes HOTT and a SENIOR! hey who is going to homcoming. whoever reads this, answer, or whatever. gotta go to a par-tay. later Current mood:  energeticCurrent music: Korn - Assitch Sunday, August 15, 200411:58PM - YAY!I SAW STATIC X IN CONCERT!!!!!!!!!! Current mood:  ecstaticCurrent music: Static X - Fix 4:11PM - so clean.i slept over at kristy's house last night...and i woke up, took a shower, went home, and took another shower. im not sure why....o well...anywho, last night was fun as hell. at like 5:30ish me and kirsty went to the skatepark, and we saw jerry by the little park thinger by the end of the path, and when he saw mw he looked like he was about to shit his pants...he's like "caitlin................................ i sed i love you, you should know i lied. *xo*xo* Current mood:  gigglyCurrent music: Drain STH - Leech Friday, August 13, 20048:24PM - Hope is dead 6: call 4840764 for a good time...hehe...oh christ...my day has totally sucked the hugest of all huge nads. god freakin damn. well i slept over at kristy's house, which wasnt bad, we had to go to bed at like 1 tho.. i woke up at like 745...and thats WAY too early for me.. until school starts on the 25th.. and i sat there poking kristy until she woke up an hour later. then we made something to eat...i dont remember what. then we went on the tramp-o-ma-line, and liz soaked us with the hose.. so then i was cold AND wet.. then we went to the skatepark.. and wasn't that a joy.. i got myself a mcflurry.. and paid another 20cents for extra freakin oreos.. and then nick showed up...i had a terrible mood swing, and i really dont know what caused it. so then i felt like shit. after that i got a call from kristy...something really bad happened to her, and so now shes all upset n such...hahahaha my dad just called Iverson a "punk". i know what he meant, but it was funny as hell. so anywhat, back to kristy...so shes all like bleh now...makes me sad. OH! i just remembered....i was sitting in kristy's basement and i was doing something annoying, and she turned around (she was by the tv) and she sed "stop! or im gonna throw this dvd at you.." and i guess i didnt stop...and so she flung a god damn DVD at my FACE!!!!!!!! its nailed me in the forhead....i have a mark there...it was BLEEDING! it hurt so much. *cries* lol right after that i screamed...really loud...*cuz no parental units were home* and shawn came running down the stairs like WTF HAPPENED?!!! it was gold. haha well im hungry...lata i dont have to speak at you to see it in your eyes... *xo*xo* Current mood:  gloomyCurrent music: Drain STH - Right Through You Monday, August 2, 200410:03PM - dicnar1989: no one calles me a whoreomfg im gonna die from fuckin laughing. im almost crying from laughing. dicnar1989: were the FUCK is banana man LMFAO *xo*xo* Current mood: gigglyCurrent music: Myself almost crying from laughing 1:48AM - ArmenianRoulette: what a faggot trianglewhat a bitch. i like the horny one the best. Current mood:  hornyCurrent music: myself laughing about the horny thing 1:45AM - NitroMonkey757: or phone sexhahah....mmm phone sex. so yea, im better now....i feel better. i had me some coffee, and i am kinda 1/2 hyper now. lol i wanna see what the triangle looks like when i say im hot. hahahaha Current mood:  hotCurrent music: Nirvana-about a girl 12:16AM - Kittierox124: cuz i got attackedtoday has kinda sucked. i think alex is pissed off at me cuz i sed i would call her, and i forgot to...and then i didnt do anything besides clean all day. my dad yelled at me for reasons unknown....so i was just waiting to go to the taste of roselle all day. i went there, and i met up with julie. we saw kuffle, mike muschong, austin, nick, and some of his friends. (and this hott guy who asked me to go tot watch his band play. ) jerry sed he would be there, but like usual, i never saw him. i came home, hungry, and there was nothing to eat. i got yelled at for another unknown reason. then i go online, and nick tells me that everything is fake. everything, meaning EVERYTHING, is fake. nothing is real. all my emotions arent real, and just blah. and since then ive felt like shit. so ur prolly sick of hearing me bitch about meaningless things, so....yeah And all i see, it burns my eyes. burning all inside. caught in the corners of my mind. thinking it over one more time. taking me over, taking all thats mine, one more time. *xo*xo* Current mood:  sadCurrent music: Korn-One More Time Sunday, August 1, 20043:56PM - hehthere is NO point in writing this....i just wanna c that the triangle looks like when i say my mood is horny. hahahaha....im not horny by the way, i just wanna see the damn tirangle... Current mood: hornyCurrent music: my bass 1:21AMLMAO! thats all i have to say!!!!!!!!! Current mood: gigglyCurrent music: myself laughing Saturday, July 31, 200411:22PM - damn snakemy god damn snake bit me earlier....lil bitch. yay i found my lip gloss!!!!! im going to the taste of roselle 2marrow. someone come meet me there.....im goin at like 7.....i redyed the pink in my hair...again....it looks good. as usual ;-). punkistme hates me. who knew....lalalala....*yawn* ill write 2marrow...or later or something. Current mood:  indescribableCurrent music: Korn - Falling Away From Me. 7:11PM - YAY!i finally got my bass....and i have Salsa!!!!!!! today rocks!!!!! *xo*xo* Current mood:  determinedCurrent music: me eating my chips 12:01AM - black.i dont buy black everything just cuz i wanna be "gothic"...black looks good on me. or so ive been told at least...thats another one of those things that people might just be telling me to make me bug off...my mom went to target today and bought me black eye shadow. yay? well i get to get my bass at like 11:30 (a.m.) today. my clothes should finally be coming. i got a new candle. yay. talked to jerry's mom online...he doesnt need to know about that.....lalala....Blue moon tonight. makes me feel more energetic.woot woot. where is alex? she didnt leave a note or anything! does anyone know her where abouts? *cries* shes at a partay and she didnt invite me!!!!!!!!!! i wanna wash my hair, cuz i got a crap load of hair spray in it, and i dont wanna sleep on it.........yeah well...yeah Why cant you see that you are my child....why dont u know what u are my mind. tell everyone in the world that I'm You. take this promise to the end of you.
Current mood: energeticCurrent music: System of a Down - Forest Friday, July 30, 20042:39PM - i feel like a beautiful loser...i feel like im wasting my timeups didnt come today. that does surprise me. my family i going to a movie tonight, and they didnt invite me. im still wondering if i told the wrong person the wrong thing. i feel kinda empty, in a sense. i found a poem today, that i wrote a long time ago. i wish i hadn't found it...made me feel like crap. even more so then i already did. if i didnt know that I had written it, i wouldnt believe it was me. it was a good poem, and it had meaning. but for all the wrong reasons. i wrote that poem in 7th grade..the beginning of 7th grade. something happened later, sometime after i had written that. something big happeend....that changed a lot about me. it even changed the way i write. it changed my personality too...mebbe im just babbling on. that would be very likely. i feel like a beautiful loser...i feel like im wasting my time....i feel like i cant escape my mind.... *xo*xo* Current mood:  drainedCurrent music: oTep - My Confession 1:30AM - mood swinggod damnit...i just had a damn mood swing. i was in SUCH a good mood. and then *poof* it was gone. now i feel like shit. uuuggghhh. nick is now saying that the fact that all his friend's relationships r goin down the crapper is cuz of him. he says: ArmenianRoulette: i pulled the trigger of fate. i think thats bullshit, but he wont believe otherwise. alex seems to be somewhat upset, and im not sure why. i hope i get my clothes 2day. that would cheer me up a little. i need to write. i need to do many thingS. whenever i seeM to feel like crap, three dayS grace comes on. no one caught onto what i just did, i can gauruntee(how do u spell that?) why is it that whenever i am in a bad mood, all my pets seem to flock around me? weird thing just happened... pUnKiSt Me: Just for the record, porcupines masturbate by holding a stick between their legs and rubbing their genitals against it. Kittierox124: wow good to know tell me, where the hell did she get that sentence from?!? ...yeah I Hate My Life....Buried Alive Behind Enemy Lines *xo*xo* Current mood: gloomyCurrent music: Otep-Buried Alive Thursday, July 29, 200411:23PM - ArmenianRoulette: crap fuckgod damn, nick never ever fails at making me feel better. even if im not feelin like shit, he still seems to be able to make me in a better mood. just read this, this will put u in a better mood too.... ArmenianRoulette: ah! heh that is great......alex is at a party without me right now *cries* she'll pay. im goin 2 watch nick's band sometime in the near future....im not sure when tho...cuz now im not goin to WI... can someone PLEASE describe my personality for me...everyone else either 1. doesnt know how, 2. has failed miserably, or 3. makes NO sense at ALL....so if u have the time, comment and tell me. :-D mmhmm...well ill mebbe write later, im not sure yet, so...yeah. im always afraid that your gone. away from me. *xo*xo* Current mood:  impressedCurrent music: puddle of mudd - away from me 6:35PM - ...I'm Nothing Special, I'm Not Unique...lalalala im listening to oTep! woot woot. damn i had fun last night...well, it all started yesterday morning.....adam asked me if i wanted to go to guitar center. so we went, only we ended up at Sam Ash...we both dont know how that happened...then alex called me, and invited me to Catwoman, and then when i asked adam if i could do, he decided he wanted to come with. so then we went to Catwoman, and then we went home, and chilled 4 awhile, and then i went over to alex's house, then then we went to brandon's house, and had a bon-fire, and alex got her freak on with brandon (HAHAHAHA) and then we went to alex's house, and then we watched Sailor Moon with Timmy, and his friend Zack (if thats how he spells it......sorry if its not) yeah then alex woke me up by putting her feet on my face, and then she drove me home, and then i CLEANED ALL FUCKING DAY. ugh, i did more cleaning today then i have my whole life put together....ahh it was terrible...and my damn clothes still havent come from UPS...damn they're slow. now my dad is yellin at me that im not payin attention to him, and i would be worried about him being able to read this from the top of the stairs...but he cant see that far....SO HAH! today is adam's birthday...hes 20...thats old. hes old now. seano is gone, im still trying to get that thru my head. damn how's this get so long. well i gotta go out to dinner....at the Village Tavern...for adam's b-day...ill be back, and write about what i ate, since i know that u all wanna read that. *winks* *got something in eye from winking* ........ *twitching* anywhat, ill write later I'm Nothing Special, I'm Not Unique, I Have Many Secrets, And I'm At An End. I'm At An End........And There's.....NO WAY OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *xo*xo* Current mood:  happyCurrent music: oTep - My Confession Navigate: (Previous 20 entries) |
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